If you know me, you know that typically, love spills out of me like a joyful glass of wine, filled to the brim with blessings .
I find myself embracing everyone I see.
Every sentence is a compliment or a celebration of life. Life has so much to be celebrated about.
Rivulets of laughter bubble out of my lips, I simply cant restrain my happy heart.
Strangers thank me for being so in love with life. For reminding them that this is a good day, and they deserve to walk away from me with a smile.
However, those days are not everyday.
It is rare since I’ve moved to Florida, but it is known to happen.
It begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness.
A feeling of physical pain caused by loneliness. My hands grip my warn out stealing wheel, I can hear me consciously tell myself that it is okay to cry.
It’s always okay to cry.
I won’t tell anyone I’m lonely, I wont mention I’m sad. This is simply a phase that we go through.
I’ll keep driving and keep moving on. But these Florida roads aren’t as peaceful as they were back in North Carolina.